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The most unfair thing about life is the way it ends. I mean, life is tough. It takes up a lot of your time. What do you get at the end of it? A Death! What’s that, a bonus? I think the life cycle is all backwards. You should die first, get it out of the way. Then you live in an old age home. You get kicked out when you’re too young, you get a gold watch, you go to work. You work forty years until you’re young enough to enjoy your retirement. You do drugs, alcohol, you party, you get ready for high school. You go to grade school, you become a kid, you play, you have no responsibilities, you become a little baby, you go back into the womb, you spend your last nine months floating…
…and you finish off as an orgasm.
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It seems that young girls now days are so fixated on self image, modeling and proving to the world that they are actually “attractive”.
This is by no means a hatepost, as long as its something you choose to do simply because you want to…not to “prove” to insignificant others that you’ve got “the look”. What exactly is “the look” anyways? Sure beats the hell out of me..[even heidi montag is still struggling with this, after undergone how many surgeries? oh heidi...you can't be helped..]
I’ve come across so many pictures of baby prostitutes-in-the-making , who’ll go to whatever lengths to become a “model”. By model, I generally mean, import model. Are you serious? What a joke. I hope you have some other plans to fall back on, and am not neglecting your education to pursue full time “modeling”…else i may have to hunt you down and personally slap some sense into you with a medalspiked bat.
Hmm…lets see, if being a “model” entails: exploiting my not-yet-fully-developed-body-so-I’ll-wear-two-padded pushup-bras-to-push-my-non-existant-chest-together-to-fool-the-masses, bat my hooker-lashed eyes, while I prove proactively for uncanny men-as-i-bend-over-on the hood”….then please. Tell me where I can sign up?
What? I don’t get paid? But it gives me good exposure you say?
F-U. You’ve either got to be really stupid or really desperate believe and accept this. Good exposure? To who? Do you really think model scouts are gonna be found at a car show? And please, tell me what makes you so much different from the other baby-slut exploiting herself 4 ft across from you.
If you don’t have the ‘look’ then you should never be desperate enough to prove to everyone that you do have it by doing free shows. This will only prove that your ‘look’ was not worth paying for.
Why do it for free? Why do you want to be a free model for the day so bad? Is it so that you could have your 5 minutes to shine in front of a bunch of no name guys? Maybe one guy so happens to be your ex and you wanted your ‘modeling’ to be a big “F-You” surprise to him. Do you honestly think begging to model for free will make any of your exes look at you and say: “Damn I was wrong to let her go, she was a real winner.” No, they won’t see you like that. As far as you’re concerned they’ll only see a girl who is willing to sell herself short for a bit of attention and a temporary label: Free import model of the day.
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I used to have the mentality that I SHOULD forgive EVERYONE; that everyone is deserving of at least another chance. I couldn’t have been more wrong. For emphasis purposes, let’s define the term “MISTAKE” first shall we?
mis•took (mĭ-stʊk’), mis•tak•en (mĭ-stā’kən), mis•tak•ing, mis•takes.
v.tr.
1. To understand wrongly; misinterpret:
2. An act or thought that unintentionally deviates from what is correct, right, or true:
So lets see…if a mistake is UNINTENTIONAL , it could not have been PREMEDIATED -> which means it may have not been POSSIBLE to FORSEE , or even AVOID from happening.
Given valid circumstances, these are forgivable.
It’s funny, I look at my past, and recall all the people I have forgiven. I realize that what I forgave them for, actually didn’t…no better yet, shouldn’t have happened…because it was in fact preventable. Friends don’t intentionally hurt friends. There is no such thing as an INTENTIONAL MISTAKE. There just isn’t. And to be quite frank? You can justify yourself with a hundred reasons, but now I’ll know better than to sympathize for you. I mean come on, after all,…on what obligatory means should I give a shit about you in the least, when my feelings were completely neglected as you did what u did, fully knowing how it would affect me.
Lets dissect this idea a little further:
Okay, so hypothetically speaking, what if some girl went to a friends birthday party, had one too many celebratory drinks, and ended up hooking up with some random guy (note: assuming this sloppy girl has a boyfriend). ANDDD just for shits and giggles, lets assume they’ve been exclusively dating for over a year, and never faced real obstacles that tested their relationship.
Is this excusable?
By definition , it was in fact UNINTENTIONAL, and it definitely couldn’t have been PREMEDIATED because she ended up with a total stranger. In all technicalities, she didn’t foresee this from happening.
[For all you anal retentive persons, I’m quite aware that its not all black and white, and is very circumstance-specific, but im discussing this in generalities to make a point; so save me the boredom of scrutinizing every little detail of this HYPOTHETICAL CIRCUMSTANCE]
The old naive quick-to-forgive-sujin would say yes (refer back to the fact that it was unintentional etc etc)
I’d like to say now that I would say no. But given the circumstances, I’d have to take many things into consideration. However I would realize that it’s unnecessary and VERY AVOIDABLE to prevent yourself from drinking excessively to the point where you lose judgment. THAT aspect of it is unforgivable (especially since it wasn’t your birthday, and that nobody was forcing you to drink) . I just don’t think using the excuse that you were high or intoxicated is a sound argument , since you willingly put yourself in that state. No one else should be to blame but yourself. FOR SHAME!! FOR! SHAME!
Anyways, I’m slowly losing my train of thought, and will continue on this post another day
-Suji
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I recently read an article with a new study conducted by the University of Utah suggesting that hating your ex after a breakup makes you feel better.< The study involved 65 undergrads who recently ended relationships that lasted more than four months (which, in college, could feel more like a century). Researchers found that people who seemed to have strong negative feelings about their ex immediately after the breakup were less likely to be depressed.
Now, I personally think this research is hardly qualitative, nor is it full-proof. It appears to be more of a speculation or generalization than anything (perhaps even commonsensical).
I don’t particularly think that “hating your ex” after a break up will provide any more contentment than perhaps indulging in a tub of Ben n Jerry’s cookie dough icecream. People have different mechanisms of dealing with situations. They behave in a manner suitable for them to prevent themselves from succumbing to a point where they become completely and utterly miserable. So naturally, these mechanisms (including the exertion of strong negative feelings), as commonsensical as it seems..are probably going to be (more) effective in preventing one from submitting to a severe state of depression; [it definitely beats crying and sulking in your room while your virulent depressive state corrodes you from the inside-out.] I’ve tried the hating thing….it did nothing for me than make me feel all the more wretched. However, due to my lack of interest in discussing past/failed relationships of any sort, I will simply say this..
People get over break ups; perhaps they never fully get over the fact that they were wrong to let someone go (and wonder what could have been; or should have been ), but most people move on..
I also choose to believe that people break up for good reason. If it was meant to be, obstacles would be overcome, problems would be discussed, resolutions would be made….and both parties would be willing to work things out (easier said than done of course). However, people who get into petty arguments and choose to break up over benign issues, only verifies their lack of commitment to each other. Engaging in constant disagreements also elicit incompatibly as well.
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I consider myself a pretty open-minded person. I can respect a person’s opinion, whether I agree with it or not. What I don’t respect are narrow-minded people who act like dictators of opinions. You’re entitled to your thoughts, but you don’t have the right or reason to be shoveling your views down my throat. An opinion can be just that, a thought. It doesn’t have to be right, it doesn’t have to be sound, it can just be a view! So I don’t understand why conversations have to turn sour or why a person gets so uptight about something that I may or may not have said, and then feel the need to have to validate their opinions to prove me wrong, as if I care in the least…
Now, I’m all about friendly bantering once in awhile, but I get bored really quickly of people who become so sensitive to every other thing I say and provoke unnecessary heated discussions. Simmer down, and recognize that not everybody has the same perspectives as you. (side note: I’m also not obligated to have a neutral view on MY blog, so I’ll discuss whatever I feel like, HOWEVER I feel like…)
As a result of telling people my honest opinions (which is usually what they ask for in the first place..irrronnnyy~), I become labeled “cold”, or “a bitch”. I’m sorry that I can’t be bothered to care that you’re not getting laid, or that the girl/guy you want to date is in fact just not interested in you. Sorry that I can’t be bothered to give a damn about you because your STILL “depressed”, and can’t acknowledge the reasons why!
It doesn’t take a brain scientist to recognize an attention-whore-emu from an individual who is actually facing hardships in life. I don’t condone falsity and deception. I for one would rather invest my time and energy into a person who actually needs my concern, sympathy and support. Consequently, I won’t spoonfeed you pity for no damn reason. What? You want to kill yourself you say? AGAIN? Oh no….let me sit here for the next 3hrs trying to convince you that you’re a valuable human being all the while you simply tell me that your “miserable” without actually elaborating on the causes of these so-called-“adversities”…ha! Yeah right, F-U and your emo-ways. (refer to my previous post on my take on “suicidal emos”). (once again, this post does not promote suicide in any way, shape or form)
As a friend to another friend, I will tell you if I am concerned for you if I think you are putting yourself in a bad situation. I’ll tell you to tuck in your boobies if its falling out, I’ll be there to cry and laugh with you if you need me to, I’ll make myself available to listen to you if you need to talk to me.. but I sure as in hell wont feed your ego day-in-day-out, because you’re so insecure about absolutely NOTHING. And if my refusal to be an enabler for someone who needs constant reassurance makes me a GRANDE bitch, then that’s fine with me.
This is a mock scenario of the kinds of relationships I chose not to have:
Person A: I think you’re beautiful
Person B: no…no I’m not, I’m so ugly
Person A: You’re crazy, you the most beautiful person I’ve ever seen in my life
Person B: I’m so fat..
Person A: you have a perfect body!
Person B: I wish I could look more like ______
Person A: You look 100x better than ________.
This is often how I deal with emos (in a nutshell):
Me: hey whatsup?
Marco: I think im going to go kill myself
Me: What happened?
Marco: I’m so sad…
Me: why?
Marco: yeah, I think I’m going to go kill myself, whats the point of living anyways, I’ll never have a gf
Me: are u serious…
Marco: nobody will ever love me
Me: are u serious…
Marco: I’m tired of living
“sujin has left the conversation”
I really cant wrap my head around why people need to play the victim card, or portray themselves as vulnerable to get as much sympathy and attention out of others as possible. I figure, the people who continuously behave this way with me, are probably doing the same thing with a hundred other people too. Mind you, at some point or another, I will get fed up and call you out on your tom-foolery in which one of 3 things usually happens:
1). You get angry at me and become offensive (in which I still wont give a damn)
2). You stop talking to me altogether
3). You begin to behave differently (less emo-more normal; success!)
So me neglecting to care shouldn’t really affect the outcome of anything, since there are people who will get fooled into actually caring for you. My suggestion? Stop wasting their time, stop wasting your own time and get a life. Also, I would respect a person who radiates confidence or is pleasant/comfortable to talk to in the very least infinity more than a person who reeks of EMO.
Oh and another thing, this is simply for you very opinionated people who like to put their 2 cents in on everything: unless you know every thought, circumstance, background and detail pertaining to me, I suggest you NOT dictate how I ought to conduct my relationships with people. I don’t call you out on your demeanor and dictate your mannerisms towards people (though I ought to;) do I…
Have a nice day 
Suji-
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This is a big FUCK YOU to all you degenerates and your cumulous bullshit.
There’s nothing I hate more than seeing you prideful-dipshits draw unnecessary attention to yourselves.
First of all. Be respectful to your elders.
Scenario: Yesterday on the bus, an elderly man had put his groceries into a little compartment. When the bus came to a sudden halt, his bottle of cola had fallen out of his bag onto the floor. As it rolled about, some juvenile prick had the audacity to kick the bottle. WTF? At what point does that seem like a good idea? You ill-mannered son of a bitch. The only possible reason I can think of behind your heinous action is to “impress” your equally inadequate friends. Real impressive. This only confirms your immaturity dumbass.
It’s these kinds of ruthless acts that I witness on a daily basis (or at least whenever I take the bus) that make me cringe. You’re parents must be proud. Perhaps I’m just particularly sensitive to people’s treatment towards others, especially the elders, but I would love for someone to step up and come to their defense. It’s just so wrong on every level imaginable.
Since I’m on the topic of dim-witted adolescents, I’ll rant a little bit more.
There’s nothing that screams “LOOK AT ME! I’M A DOUCHEBAG” more than a poorly dressed degenerate with not ONE but TWO cigarettes wedged behind his dirtyass ears on EACH SIDE. Seriously? WHY???
And please, do not torment everyone around you by talking. I can’t handle listening to someone talk when their vocabulary consists of ¾ slang. It’s called grammatical syntax BITCH. GO TO SCHOOL AND LEARN HOW TO ARTICULATE YOUR THOUGHTS LIKE A NORMAL PERSON.
Finally, I hate how you little shits heave with obnoxiousness and confidence when you travel in packs. When I’m minding my own business/doing my own thing (usually going to/from somewhere with my music on), DO NOT bother me. Don’t approach me. Don’t talk to me. And while we’re at it, don’t look at me either. I’d love for you to come up to me and utter your smartass comments when your little friends aren’t around.
Example: This happened awhile ago when I was out for a run. (Mind you, whenever I go for a run, I ALWAYS have my music on with me). While I was running I happened to come across some fatboy and some fat chick (who was evidently going out with the stout obese kid on the bike). Anywho, Pilsbury decides to say “Ching-chang-chong” to me just as I’m about to pass him. His stupid remark made his blubbery girlfriend chuckle… and as expected, this positive feedback resulted in another “ching-chang-chong” from fatboy. [these kids must have been no more than 16..] I couldn’t be bothered to get angry or disturbed so I simply gave them the finger, and called them out on their stupidity as I continued running
BUT!!!What I really wanted to do was to pick up a stick, and shove it through the kids wheels so that he would get catapulted off his bike onto the concrete…where I would then proceed to use the same stick to beat the fat out of him. I’d probably beat blubberbitch too just for laughing at something so stupid.
-Suji
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Disguised Weapons
Original ad:
**** Disguisable weapons wanted ****
Wanted: hidden blades, belt buckle knives, cane swords, etc…..
Offering: cash, items for barter
From Me to **********@***********.org:
Hey,
I saw your ad looking for concealable/disguised weapons. I have several fine-crafted items you may be interested in. Respond if you are interested and I will send you pictures and prices.
Thanks,
Mike
From Jeff ****** to Me:
I am. lets see what you got.
From Me to Jeff ******:
Jeff,
Here you go:
Looks like a normal spoon, right?
Wrong. It is actually a deadly 2.5″ half-smooth, half-serrated knife with tactical grip. One minute you are enjoying a bowl of cereal, and the next you are fighting off attackers with this deadly and disguised weapon.
I am asking $50 for the blade. Let me know if you want to stop by and take a look at it.
Mike
From Jeff ****** to Me:
that is stupid as hell and looks like crap. unless you have anything better to offer, dont waste my time.
From Me to Jeff ******:
Jeff,
I am sorry you feel that way about the spoon blade. I do have some other weapons that I think you will feel differently about.
Mike
From Jeff ****** to Me:
fine. but if it is another knife duct taped to a spoon then you can fuck off.
From Me to Jeff ******:
Jeff,
Thank you for re-considering. Here are three quality disguised weapons that I think you will love:
At first glance, this looks like a normal party cup. However, if you look close enough, you will see that it is really a fully automatic Glock 18C. You will be able to pour your enemies a nice warm cup of lead with this fine purchase. Asking $900 for the gun/cup combo.
Still thirsty for justice? Try this badass M16A2 disguised as a 24-pack of soda. The box has two finely crafted holes on each side to allow for any kind of optics (not included) that you wish to attach. This weapon is only for sale if you have a Class III permit.
This cleverly disguised weapon may look like a tissue box, but is actually a Benelli M3 12 gauge shotgun disguised as a tissue box. The ultra-soft quilted tissues serve as a comfortable grip on the pump-action shotgun. Also, if you find yourself sneezing during the heat of combat, you will have a handy tissue box ready for action. Asking $1500 for the weapon. Additional tissue boxes are an extra $5 per box.
Let me know if you want any of these items.
Thanks,
Mike
From Jeff ****** to Me:
youre a fucking dumbass, shitbrained, asswipe, retarded dipshit. you prob walk around with that shit too you dumb mother fucker. I hope you get hit by a car. fuck off, eat shit, and die.
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Todays topic of discussion:
Relationships (part I)
This is my take on relationships.
it can be such a beautiful thing! It can also cause one a lot of havoc and hardache
I’m currently in a relationship with a person whom I love so much it’s kind of ridiculous. Without going into much detail….Hands down- he’s what you may call Perfection… And almost 4 years later….I couldn’t be any happier. But I digress…
I’d like to discuss a few fundamental requirements that I think are necessary for a healthy relationship to go round and round
1). TRUST
I state this as the first one for good reason.
Without trust, there is no relationship (or at least a lasting/healthy one). Enough said.
2). RESPECT
By respect, I mean the following:
a). boundaries (do not invade each other’s blackberries, e-mails…ANYTHING. Since there shouldn’t be a reason to have to anyways. Am I wrong?
b). boundaries (every so often, it’s nice,( or even necessary) to let the men do their man thing, and the ladies have their ladies nights. If you’re the type of girl who wants to involve yourself in everything your boyfriend does, I suggest you simmer down 7 notches. You’re boyfriend, and his friends will respect you so much more. This same rule applies for you men!) [Note: man time + ladies nights does not give you the liberty to go out, get sloppy and do something regretful with some random person WHO MAY have had “sex-appeal overload” written all over them at the time but was actually teeming with back fat, bulging pimples and greasy hair. HA! TAKE THAT!]
c). boundaries (at some point in your relationship, you will discover things that are/aren’t deemed “okay” with the other person; it’s probably a good idea not to deliberately push buttons. For example: you’re girlfriend might be sensitive and have body image issues; it’s probably not a good idea to call her, fat, tubby or behemoth (Unless u want to get dropkicked.) or your boyfriend may not be okay with you drinking excessively with some questionable “friends” at a sketchy club when you can’t handle your alcohol.)
3). COMMUNICATION
talk. About anything and everything! Chances are, engaging in more frequent/regular conversations will lead you to:
a). discovering more about the other person you might have otherwise not known
b). building up a stronger bond with one another
c). allowing you to discuss and resolve issues/problems without having it blown out of proportion in some violent argument
4). CUDDLE TIME
THIS IS FUNDAMENTAL. I highly recommend at least 4 hrs of daily cuddle time. Okay maybe not 4 hours…but embrace eachother!!! 
-Sujin
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Todays topic of discussion: Good boys vs Badboys
A lot of my male friends have asked me on many occasions why girls go after guys who are assholes and/or why they continue to stay with them when they know they are being treated poorly.
The Answer: The hell should I Know.
I personally, am not particularly fond of the idea of being in a relationship where I’m verbally (or God forbid, physically) abused, neglected, lied to….and whatever else…but hey. Some girls might dig that stuff!
But no, seriously, I’ll give you my honest opinion, and if anyone has any other thoughts! I’d love for you to share it (Note: next time anyone asks me this God Forsaken question again, imam just direct them to this link )
Okay, so I think “badboys” are usually associated with the following: muscular [cliché, I know.], don’t –give-a-shit-about-anyone/anything-attitude, “ hard to get” (hey~ who doesn’t love a chase/being chased).
ANNDD “goodboys” are: soft, sentimental, in touch with their feminine side, more expressive (verbally and physically), conservative…and dare I say… Scrawny? HAHA I’m kidding! I’m kidding!! simmer down -_-
And yeah, while I’m sure the so-called “badboys” and their bulbous muscles and random assortment of tattoos are aesthetically pleasing to the eye, no girl wants to be neglected. Girls want to feel special and loved when they’re around their man!
So here’s the main point I’m getting at.
Since “good guys” tend to express themselves more frequently, the “I love you so much” and I miss you’s, becomes something of a mundane nature. Not that it loses its meaning per say, it just becomes…well how shall I say…common? Expected? Routine?
On the other hand, say that a girl gets into a conflict with her “badboy” (where he’s evidently done something to hurt her feelings), and he ‘apologizes’ by saying something like “I’m sorry, I really do care about you, it wasn’t my intention to hurt you, I love you” WHICH.. WHOOAA!~..is completely out of character….then yeah, you can expect the girl to take it more personally!
So, being a girl and all… she will most likely convince herself that he’s changed [HA-HA-HA my ass! ], and that he must really love her since you know…he’s never said he loved her before! Etc. etc.
[…inevitably, the deceit, arguments and such will continue. He will say something to her that means virtually nothing. The girl will take it to mean everything….and thus the vicious cycle continuessss]
-Suji
